Sarah, the favoured one.

It’s “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” but it isn’t such a happy birthday. The irony.

BF’s in camp. He forgot it’s my bday. Guess he lost count of the dates. But it’s ok.

2nd bro’s flying off to aust for a year today. Of all the days to fly. Gosh.

I know, i’m 21 this year, finally. But… How to make it a happy birthday? Not like I feel much of a difference. But like KS said, it’s just tt pple expect us to behave like adults now.

じゃあ。

Singapore’s service getting lousier by the day. Just that day at the chalet, NTUC income screwed up on their website when they didn’t prevent my from booking using what I tot was an NTUC member card. OK, mayb this is their plan to get the public to book their lousy cramp chalets.

Followed by stupid fujifilm. “U should have came at 1pm” SHOULD HAVE SHOULD HAVE. FUCK IT LAR. It’s way past 1pm, my brother needs the photos by early afternoon, he got a plane to catch. I’ve asked nicely for priority and all I got was that. Or an explanation on how your machine works. For fuck?!

Party was a blast. Happy. My money was well spent. =))

じゃあ。

Sentosa is fun in the eveninggggg. Heeee.

Been busy with preparation of project lollipop and operation beijing. Would like to thank those who have helped or contributed. Muack Muack.

BF got me my bday present today coz he’s enlisting on 10 July. An anklet (with a bell which he insisted i should add on) which goes LING LING LING. Just that it isn’t as loud as phoebe’s, i hope/think/guess.

Heard there’s part 2 which is already done, but will only be delivered by dunno who on my birthday party. It’s no fun and irritating, when kaisin and BF are working together (i dunno if they are working together actually, I’m just guessing), doing those steal chicken touch dog stuff and both don’t wanna tell me or give me clues.

He made a MONTAGE – BF says “not simple video, is MONTAGE” in response to my earlier post that he made a simple video (with much effort of the choice of songs and all) for our 4th mth n it made me cry! So sweet. Thinking of how silly I was, I couldn’t help but cry, because we’ve been experiencing alot of down sides recently.

But it touched me alot, when he felt sad because I was sad, he puts the blame on himself and says that “like I didn’t do a good job in taking good care of you…”

AWWWWWW. How sweet my bf is. <3<3

じゃあ。

the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run

Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

The chorus makes me cry! =((

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The Parable of the Lost Son

 ¹¹Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. ¹²The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.

 ¹³“Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. ¹⁴After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. ¹⁵So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. ¹⁶He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

 ¹⁷“When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! ¹⁸I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. ¹⁹I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.‘ ²⁰So he got up and went to his father.
      ”But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

 ²¹“The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

[Note: He didn't have the heart to repent, he just wanted food. Just like how we will pretend to use reverse psychology so our parents won't punish us. Leftovers are still better than pig's food. BUT! He didn't even have a chance to finish his sentence before he was cut off by this dad.]

 ²²“But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. ²³Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. ²⁴For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.

Unconditional love.

Only the cries of his disciples could wake Jesus up in the storm. The storm couldn’t wake him up. He was sleeping soundly in the boat. He was sleeping, coz He knew there was no way the storms could consume the boat, when the King of kings was in it. But he still woke up all the same, to calm the storm, so that His disciples could be at rest.

I’m the boat (His spirit is in me), the storm are my problems, my consciousness is the disciples’ cries. Try substituting that into the story. Haha!

じゃあ。

The God I know, my tower of refuge

Hearts are healed, Christ revealed.

The God I know, light of the city

The God I know, strengthens the weak.

The God I know, Your heart beats within me.

As You are, so are we.

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Piggyback is fun.

N i want more hints abt my pressieeE!!! <3<3

Kaisin is back!

It’s a good day!

じゃあ。

C.R sold to Real Madrid. HOO HOO!!

So Kaka + Cristiano Ronaldo = ???

So egg-citing.

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I don’t know. I’m at a loss of words. I’m just sad. It just seems like it’s just going downhill and all I can do is treasure what’s left for me that I even took a photo of his ugly handwriting on the back of the cold’s storage receipt.

じゃあ。

Pastor Brian Houston preached today! I totally love his sermon! TOTALLY.

Had fun with the ladies (Yvonne, April and Sheila) after serving. Totally love them. Muack Muack <3<3

N Xing wang (taiwan) cafe @ citylink spoilt our mood with their VERY RUDE and BAD service.

Pffff.

じゃあ。

Family, bf and besties have been chipping in to help for my bday party! Heee. Finger food and hand made souveniors. Been busy running around and researching on the materials and finding where to buy them. Shall not disclose too much. =))

Origami session was fun, tested my patience and man, I tore “the turtle” apart at the last step while BF managed to come out with some inflatable bunny (which he likes alot coz he thinks it’s damn cute) and a turtle. BLEAH.

Am I being possessive? I don’t think so? I just think he shouldn’t waste his time and money with people of no quality? As in, i rather he spend more time and money doing the things n having a goal?

If she said that Girl A is trying to be modest by saying her boobs are small, so Girl B don’t like Girl A.. If that’s being modest, then what abt an anorexic girl telling people she’s fat? Same logic, DUH. Is how a person view him/herself. So I think she should just mind her own fucking business?

And why doesn’t B go around telling pple “AE, MY BOOBS DAMN BIG LEH.” But ok la, since she always 放半粒, so is also a signal telling people her boobs are big? N seriously I don’t like guys who use corner of their eyes and look at people, or pick people to chat with (e.g. only chat with pretty girls or WHATever and so nice in front of them but totally forgets his manners when with other people). But then again, losing my temper over such people, is also a waste of my time.

=))

じゃあ。

Family denotes a group of people or animals (many species form the equivalent of a human family wherein the adults care for the young) affiliated by a consanguinity, affinity or co-residence. Although the concept of consanguinity originally referred to relations by “blood,” anthropologists^[who?] have argued that one must understand the idea of “blood” metaphorically, and that many societies understand ‘family’ through other concepts rather than through genetic distance.

One of the primary functions of the family is to produce and reproduce persons, biologically and socially.^[1][2] Thus, one’s experience of one’s family shifts over time. From the perspective of children, the family is a family of orientation: the family serves to locate children socially, and plays a major role in their enculturation and socialization. From the point of view of the parent(s), the family is a family of procreation the goal of which is to produce and enculturate and socialize children.

Credits to wikipedia.

What hurts the most, is when you are all happy, loving your family and all. But actually your family bu shuang you, and it’s your bf who tells you that. Family politics. I’m hurt coz after how much I love mummy, she still chose to tell bf tt she isn’t happy with me. I’m hurt the 2nd time, when I found out that my beloved brothers also agree/complain abt it.

About me being loud(talking loudly) and disrespectful. I don’t know, it may be true, i don’t deny it, but why don’t tell me at that moment?

I’m disappointed. Am I THAT scary no1 dares to confront me to even tell me the mistake I’ve made?

Proverbs 13:24 says, He who spares his rod hates his son, But he who loves him disciplines him promptly. Do they hate me that much?

N I thought back and realised, I’ve never really lived up to my mum’s expectations of a girl/her daughter, always giving up halfway. When people were playing with barbie dolls, I was playing soccer with my eldest bro and watching manchester utd on tv. Pretty and nice complexion, soft spoken and gentle, air stewardess, pop star, I didn’t fulfill any.

Finally, I’m sorry bf. I’m crying.

2 Corinthians 12:9
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

I’m not perfect (as you can see from above). Everyday I fall short, I say the wrong things, etc. Was chatting with grace just that night on msn and grace was saying that when we are imperfect, He is our perfection.

How lovely, how wonderful. I do the natural, God does the SUPER natural.

Grace is a gift. It is given freely, but it didn’t come cheap. It was paid by the blood of God’s only son, Jesus Christ. He took our curse, so that we can reign in life. He took the crown of thorns, so that we can have his shalom (peace, health, prosperity). He took the beatings, so that today we can declare that by His stripes, WE ARE HEALED.

じゃあ。

From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out.